UGH!!!!

I"m really frustrated at myself sometimes. I procastinate. I wait till the last minute to do something then I rush for fear of being late. When I rush, I panic. And somehow I become clumsy, I start hitting things, banging my head and hurting myself. Also of course, I know that I'm running late, I decide to try something new with my hair or look desperately for something I have no time to look for just because I want to wear it. Omg! That's crazy! Then when I thought I got everything, I rush out. As soon as I close the door, I realize that I forgot something. Jesus Christ! Am I that retarded at times? Egad! So disorganized I don't like me sometimes. I kick myself.

March 14 sigh

It's 3am. On my way home from work. Was hoping to be home early but alas, the cash deposit was short by 46 dollars! Fuck! Tried to figure out what went wrong. Could not find it. Dammit! I'm tired! Wanna go home! Wrote it down in the manager's log. Help! I hate it when this happens. On the train now. Sleepy. Writing this to stay awake. It's been a long day. Don't want to miss my stop. Such an ordeal. Struggling to stay awake. Talked to my son. He's got his game. Love him so much! Happy thoughts.

Reflection: March 1, 2008

Throughout my life I have been blessed with people that truly love and care for me. People I can depend on. Sad to say that I took some of them for granted, hurt them even, and never truly appreciated what they have given me, until now.