UGH!!!!

I"m really frustrated at myself sometimes. I procastinate. I wait till the last minute to do something then I rush for fear of being late. When I rush, I panic. And somehow I become clumsy, I start hitting things, banging my head and hurting myself. Also of course, I know that I'm running late, I decide to try something new with my hair or look desperately for something I have no time to look for just because I want to wear it. Omg! That's crazy! Then when I thought I got everything, I rush out. As soon as I close the door, I realize that I forgot something. Jesus Christ! Am I that retarded at times? Egad! So disorganized I don't like me sometimes. I kick myself.